courtney lynn hild

its insane how much i miss you courtney. i really wish i could have one day with you - oh, just one. id let you wear my watch all day, and spray that perfume on it. (remember that perfume? i used to pretend to hate when you'd spray it on my watch, but in reality, i loved it) oh, and then id let you write whatever you wanted to on my soap shoes. maybe we would hang out with joshua yates. but only for a little bit. :p then we'd ride the swings together for a while, and then move on to the see-saw. (but id be really care and make sure you didn't get hurt this time) after all that, maybe we can spend the night at six flags like we did that one time - except jon b. won't be mad at me for talking to you anymore. then id have to ask for another day with you, and we'd go to dave and busters to eat, maybe even listen to pillar's fireproof along the way. ;) [by the way, i never thanked you for that cd...] i would let you play my guitar, my martin, and then id play you whatever song you wanted me to, especially that one song i played in the competition, cause that was your favorite. (i'm sorry i never got around to teaching you the guitar like i promised you i would) id make you whatever you wanted to eat, cause im gonna be a chef someday. then we'd sit down and watch lord of the rings, cause i think deep down inside you loved it just as much as i did. oh, and definitely, you, my mom, and i would talk - talk about this disease, so that she can get better, too. then id make sure we took at least a dozen pictures, cause now im so sad that i don't even have one with you. :/ after all was said and done, though, id give you a big hug, and tell you i love you, and miss you. yeah, i miss you.