19th birthday

today/yesterday was my 19th birthday.

i feel older.

but 19 is such a weird year.

it's not 16, where you can drive, not 18 where you can vote, not 20, the beginning of the 20s, not 21, where i can get a gun: just 19, a weird year.

anyways; i got a bunch of calls and texts and stuff on facebook/myspace about my birthday.

thank you all! :) it really did make me feel special, even though some made me feel more special than others. haha.

it was actually 46 in all; wow! 

wednesday  (5th), marisa texted me and asked me if my birthday was the 21st. i was like, are you kidding me?!

but then she got it right; so she offered to take me out to eat - and that we did.

we went to texas land and cattle, and boy, did i have a good time.

we have not just chilled in SO long. that has made me sad.

i mean, it has really helped me get over her, and i don't like her AT ALL anymore; but i do miss her so much, just being with her as a friend. 

i had some kind of steak and garlic mashed potatoes; and for dessert we had this AMAZING chocolate chip and vanilla ice cream delight. 

one thing that totally made my day was this: 

buzzz​zzzz. *​pause​*​ buzzz​zzzz *​pause​*​ buzzz​zzzz
me: hello​?​
cassa​ndra:​ hi alex!​ happy​ birth​day!​
me: *big smile​ :)* thank​ you cassa​ndra!​
cassa​ndra:​ how old are you?
me: guess​!​
cassa​ndra:​ 30?
me: WHAT?​!​
cassa​ndra:​ just kiddi​ng!​ i meant​ 26.
me: * -_- silen​ce *
cassa​ndra:​ hello​?​
me: what do you want?​
cassa​ndra:​ ok, how about​ 20?
me: im 19 cassa​ndra.​
cassa​ndra:​ *​burst​s out laugh​ing*​ oops,​ i was wrong​ by a littl​e i guess​.​
cassa​ndra,​ 9 years​ old

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anyways, back in the day, marisa and i used to be a thing; everyone knew that.

and we used to write notes to each other almost EVERY school day - it was definitely the cutest thing. we used to always talk about how we would save them, and when we are old and married, we'd read them to each other. 

well, we never got married, obviously - but she did put them in order (we had a numbering system) and put them in  a folder and gave them to me.

i just finished reading them all, each and every single one of them.

they were just the cutest things, i swear. sometimes i miss marisa more than i should. ha.

and than zoe. wow. we used to have an AMAZING friendship. i miss her, too. i wish there were not certain things in our way to keep us from  having a good friendship. oh well. i called her today, and talked to her for about two minutes. it was really nice hearing her voice. i remember when we used to talk every night, for an hour or so. i remember that one time when she called me at like two in the morning, woke me up, and then we talked till six am - on a saturday night/sunday morning. those were the good times. 

haha. me and women. they are silly.

i signed up to model mayham again, and this time i got approved.

so i have a few shoots scheduled next week with my soon-to-arrive-nikon-d700!

well, the first person im going to shoot is tara, DUH. she's like, my favorite person to take pictures of, but we've already gone over that.

the listening and abandon are booked!

december 4th is the date.

$5 a head, so be there.

my goal is to get 200 people at that concert.

uh oh.

i need to kick things into high gear!