oh yeah

and i got the job with cornerstone.

i will be doing the following team (and single) portraits:

baseball

softball

track

soccer

cheerleaders

and, hopefully basketball and volleyball, but more so basketball. 

i am killing my hair

yep.

it's just that time again.

i don't really want to cut it, but it must be short.

i look like a dang liberal hippie, and i don't like it.

so i just realized

how nice it would be to have a sweetheart, a gal to call my own.

how lame is this?

good ones are just so hard to come by; she is far more precious than jewels, and more rare than rubies. 

ughhhhhhhhhh.

i don't want to rush this, though.

(but i still would like a gorgeous one)

what's playing on my itunes right now?

family fiction.

check out their newest cd.

it just came out today.

and i purchased it.

purchased! wow, that feels good to say.

reset!

no, not this song by mutemath: 

even though, YES, that is a great song, im not talking about that.

(really, watch the entire thing, it's amazing)

i started this diet monday, to 'reset' my body.

i started weighing 189 pounds (wow, im fat, even though i think i hold it pretty well), and my goal is to weigh 175 pounds by friday.

haha.

we'll see.

if that doesn't work, i think i might do it for a second week. 

today is obama's inauguration. 

NOT excited about the next 35,000 hours. 

ugh. 

i keep on having dreams im going to a friend's house in florida, it's so weird.

maybe i miss this friend; yes, that's it. i miss melissa.

i love my iphone.

and all it's sweet apps. 

heh.

oh, and im going to see mr. pollard today - i already gave him the samples on friday, and now we'll see what he thinks of them, when i go in to talk with him.

read

we were made by God, and for God, and until one figures that out, i don't think life is going to make any sense.

look at it this way: life is a series of problems: either you are in a problem as you read this, you're coming out of a problem right now, or you're getting ready to get into another problem pretty soon. 

why is this? because God is more interested in our character, than our comfort. ouch.

we can be pretty dang happy here on earth, but that is not the goal of life; no, the goal should be to grow in character, in Christ likeness.

this past year has been one of the best years of my life, but also the toughest, with my mother, Yolanda, passing away.

i used to think that life was a series of hills and valleys - that you'd go through a dark time, but then you'd go through a high point, a mountaintop, and that you'd do this back and forth. 

well i read that life is more like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life.

no matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on.

and vice versa, no matter how bad things are looking in your life, there is something that you can thank God for, and crack a smile.

if you focus on your problems, you're just going into self-centeredness, which is 'my problem, my issues, and of course my pain.' 

want to know an easy way to get rid of your pain? simple: get the focus off yourself and onto God, and others.

you need to learn to deal with the good and the bad of life. 

God didn't put you, or me, on this earth just to fulfill a to-do list. no, He's much more interested in what we are than what we do. that's why we're called human BEINGS, not human DOINGS. 

iphone service sucks, pt 1

so i already had my first mishap with at&t. 

what a shame.

it's such a cool phone - apple really screwed up by releasing this grand iphone for only at&t,  and not allowing such networks as sprint an opportunity. 

lame. 

that was my biggest regret, in getting an iphone.

oh well.

yesterday, for about four hours, my service just dropped. 

just like that. no calls, no texts, nothing. just wifi. 

i was upseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

i felt like throwing my brand new phone across the room at the tv.

J A 2.5 was hilarious, though. 

iphone

i got an iphone.

woohoo.

a white 16gb. 

i love it.

im just scared to use many minutes. heh. 

it's pretty much glued to my hands. 

all the apps are what make it so awesome, and unique. 

anyways, im shipping my chicago navy pier picture to my cousin today. 

i got an estimate for $20 from UPS. sweet. i was thinking more along the lines of $85+. 

and i did my soccer practice portrait for mr. pollard on friday.

it was rather hot, but the shot came out rather fine - i'm just not excited on showing him the team 'portrait'. it was lame, i think.

i wish he'd have given me a chance to take pictures at night, cause i would have been able to do some sweet things with the lighting. 

seeing how it moves on

tomorrow (thursday) i start my internship with winfield little photography. they just got back from their christmas vacation. im excited. 

thursday evening, i think im getting an iphone. finally.

at one thirty, friday, i have a meeting with antonian's basketball coach (large, private catholic school) to talk about doing their basketball portraits.

then at two on friday i am taking some practice portraits for the athletic director of cornerstone.

he says he'd 'rather pay me to do ALL cornerstone's athletic portraits, than pay different photography companies for each team (i.e., one company for soccer, another company for track, and so on).

im excited, see?

recipe book

i just found this recipe book my mother started putting together for me right before she passed away; she thought i was going to be going to california, so she wanted to make sure i could take a little bit of her with me, while i was gone.

my favorite part of the recipe book? besides the fact that i now have a part of her forever with me, is the way she ended each recipe:

 - bon apetito, i love you, mommy. 

-_-

love, sweet love

question

how do you pick up the threads of an old life - how do you go on when in your heart you begin to understand: there is no going back?

there are somethings that time cannot mend, some hurts that go too deep, and they've taken ahold of me.